the point: I quit smoking on 11/05/2012 (I wrote about it below), and it's been almost 2 years since then
commentary: For so long I didn't write anything - I was waiting for the checkpoints: 0.5 years, 1 year. Time began to go very differently, life became fuller. There were so many events that it seemed like 5 years, not 21 months had passed. And how many problems I solved)...
No, no illusions now - I'm afraid to even think about smoking lightly, to "be on my guard" all the time. Even after reading the book Allen Carr's Easy Way To Stop Smoking, it was really easy for me to stop doing it. But it clearly says that once you start again after a long and successful period without cigarettes, the probability to quit again and forever is almost zero, because you stop believing in yourself (because you haven't smoked for N years and you've lost it).
Since then I've been trying hard to get my dad to read this book and quit too. After all, I've been trying to read it for 4 years, both in audio format and in book format...
I realize now that in my subcortex I was afraid that I would have to stop smoking eventually, so I didn't finish the book, or I just ignored it.